Here it is, my first ever lil bat reacts video more so turned more so story time but if you know me that is to be expected! I was reacting to my old 412nes video featuring The Wire Riots and their unique way of writing songs!!! Be sure to go check them out and watch our original interview from 2016! I talk about my love for graveyards, my thoughts and feelings on the supernatural and some of the spooky experiences I've had! Please leave a comment to share any spooky experiences you have had and also let me know which of my old videos I should react to or tell stories about!! Hello Hello, to the ghost that read my blog! PS I know no one does, thats probably why I suck at writing! Anyways just want to say Happy New Year and reflect a bit!
2018 was really great, I think I can def say it was my least depressed year since being a kid. I mean I will always be emo and cry at like everything but this year there was a lot less of that all. And its stupid to say its because of a boy but I mean it really has a lot to do with my boyfriend. The last few years were weird for us and we went though so much and half the time I was upset or sad because of our situations, but like we are officially together and have never been in a better place as a couple. I mean things are always a work in progress and I had some break downs and bad days over us but since may when we started dating so much is out of my paranoid and worried mind. SO THATS AWESOME!! My family is great and I appreciate them so much, I guess its something you learn and grow as you get older but I wish so much I could go back in time and enjoy family time and show how much I love them and how much I know they do for me and just be a grateful kid because I was bratty a lot. Well not bratty but I didn't know how to control my emotions because of everything and just was easily annoyed and couldn't see past the moment I was in I guess. Apparently over the last year I just gained a lot of clarity. Anyways I dont really have a plan or a thought process on this blog because I came here to write one about a new band I started to love this year, and am watching their music videos now! I need to get better at watching music videos and being creative. THIS YEAR 2019 I NEED TO MAKE A MUSIC VIDEO! It is the year to do it!! I can't do it all on my own like I want a crew and such. I would really like a video creation group like how I used to have for work. Its so overwhelming to think of ideas, shoot them, be in them, and edit them. I say this all the time but like I like directing, maybe showing up a little, and then editing! I never wanted to do it all and just need a creative group that meets like once a week and makes a video at least a month or something. So that is def a goal too. I will be getting a camera, I'm even thinking of going with a $400 one to just get going and then getting the one I want later. I know I say this all the time and write it here but no one reads or helps hold me accountable to follow though. Like I want to and I'm motivated but I wont get up and do something unless I have a set plan and whatever. I want to commit and do its just hard on my own and I have a million excuses like living in a basement that I don't have recording space, or a living room to chill in or like I don't wake up because like my sleep is horrible and i keep trying to get on a better schedule but my brain and medicine don't like me to. But its all something I'm aware of and want to fix. There is so much and so many steps and I have support of family, friends, and my boyfriend but like I need a partner to do all this with and yeah my boyfriend in most of it but I need a creative counterpart! blah blah blah blah blah this blog really sucks. I think I need to take my time when I'm not at work to go though all this and make a video for you all! BUT 2019 is the year for changes. Last year was great but not much got done, I didnt do too many new things, I didnt see too many of my friends. It was good but I need to take the mental wellness of this year and being happy with family and my boyfriend and combine that with years before when I made videos all the time (i mean i got paid to and it was my job so that made it easier) so maybe find another job like that or turn it into a side one or a social thing. I want to create create create abut also find new things, drink less because bars are boring and drunking isnt really fun any more, go back to finding new things and events and being the social lil bat I am. anyways im stopping now because this is just a mess of thoughts. ha 2018 good, 2019 lets do even better! How music makes you feel, think, connect, and a million other things!!!
Self reflecting and learning about myself though ranting about random thoughts from a music video that popped up on YouTube! And how at first I was being down on myself for missed opportunities but then ended up content and really motivated to get back on my life path!! It’s a normal Trish rant and super duper long BUT you’ll learn quite a bit about me and my love and passion for music and videos and how I’ve changed from being a shy because “I don’t want to sound like a fan girl” to a not shy I want to be in the music world interviewing and making awesome music videos SO lets make it happen! Who would have known I’d find all this motivation and reminder the same week I was being so down! Ha kinda goes with what I talked about in my video I recorded yesterday and posted today about how wacky the moon and retrograde had us. And like boom, boom, boom. Depressed, clear, motivated!!! Anyways let me know what you think!! Besides that I am crazy because I know! How many thoughts do you have within 10 minutes? My brain surprised me, well more so attacked me last night and let me tell you, the amount of thoughts rushing and floating in my head was unreal. Then think about in a hour, new thoughts, old thoughts, bad thoughts, not really any good ones, then them repeating over and over and over to the point you have to just scream out loud or talk out loud to yourself to slow them down....I'm assuming it was an anxiety/panic attack. Started out as a little anxiety, then exploded into a panic and then couldn't chill out.
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| Hawthorne Heights back at it again! New song Pink Hearts and Just Another Ghost Music Video! ... I'm obviously excited if you didn't know HH is pretty much my all time favorite band. Even may have a half sleeve inspired by their lyrics and album art! Which I suppose I should share at some point. I love my tattoos and put a lot of thought into them but don't do much of sharing about them. SOOO the weird thing about this is I got a new tattoo about two months ago from my bat Dominque (@Dominiquedarko) because shes apprenticing right now. I had no idea what to get but was like "why not a EMO ghost", because why not? SOOO that was two months ago, now to this week when the new music video came out and it has a sad lil ghost in it!!! How weird and perfect!! ... ... PINK HEARTS- love it cant stop listining to it. its a awesome combination of all of HH's sounds over the years all meshed into one song. It blows my mind how they fit so much into one song!!! They also toss in a lot of references or throwbacks to old songs in it!! ... I do have to admit the first few times I listened to it I was a bit overwhelmed and like "WOAH, too much going on here" but now I listen to it at least a few times a day! These guys never cease to surprise me! Go listen to it and download it on Spotify. (just click the picture i posted for it) ... I need a bit more time listening to Just Another Ghost and to watch the video and actually pay attention to both. I have been crazy busy the last few days. Obviously I dig it but I was overly excited about the lil ghost and that's as far as my mind has gotten on the HH subject this week.. Really wish their tour was bringing them to Pittsburgh!! MISS YOU DUDES! |
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