LiLRant:
Equality/Excuses/Feminism/Fairness ???
This was going to be a review and thoughts on the book MOXIE, but 1. I’m not quite done with it yet. 2. I think its important to share my views first and then my review of the book separately… ALSO I’ve never reviewed a book before because typically I don’t read so don’t judge me too harsh once I do, do that. So this starts off as notes on what I wanted to write about in the review then a LiLBaT rant on my I suppose almost political views on equality and then just well read it if you want….. this would probably be better as a video too BUT again sitting in an office with a bunch of thoughts in mind.
MOXIE: Cheesy; A bit too many things all at once but keeps if interesting
My favorite character is Seth because he is the voice of equality and keeps reminding “hey not all guys are like that, not all guys are the same” which is typically me saying that from both sides
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I really don’t want to get into too much of my opinions on gender equality and just equality overall because I’m not looking to upset anyone or start a war online. Not that I’m scared to voice my opinion or have one just this is just not a time for that. And keep having this rant in my mind and have tweeted a bit but now I’m blogging, right?
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I usually stay in my bubble… I feel what I feel, but have had a way stronger opinion on a lot of things the past month I would say. I never really felt that I needed to post about it or stand up for it just for the sake of it. Not that I dont. I voice my opinion when it’s needed and stand up for people when I can and when I feel its right. I actually step into a bunch of situations, and don’t need to give examples of them because this is not what this is about…
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What started me being feisty I think was. When I went to a class a few weeks ago, the whole beginning was many of the women attending saying how they felt they are treated bad just because they are women; how that has put a hold or stop to their goals or feel like they cant ever achieve what they want in life because of that.
I KNOW and FEEL for the people who experience that BUT I can’t say that I have. I mean I suppose I have; now that I’m really thinking about it, of course I have we all have BUT I NEVER LET IT AFFECT ME. I may have in the past but not with the thought of I cant do this because I’m a girl/women so I can say I cant recall an instance when I let gender or any other classification keep me from being me and trying to do what I want. (and I haven’t made it yet for many reasons but I’m still working and this blog is part of that)
I think that is what frustrates me the most… I know not everyone thinks or feels how I do. Good god, do I know that because I feel so much.
I am so very EMO and that’s OKAY. That doesn’t just mean I’m sad which is a whole other rant for another day! (if anything I feel like I get judged on that more then anything to do with my body).
To use “I’m treated differently, so I can’t” as an excuse gets me fired up!
YOU CAN. You can do or be whatever you want. It’s not easy and as things may seem easy from your perspective of someone you don’t know how or what it took for them to get there either. Your judgment and being like well they are “male/female” whoever/whatever it is that you think is discriminating against you well that’s kind of what you’re doing in response?
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(Again a lot of this has to do with the book MOXIE, that I’m currently reading)
I am NOT against feminism.
But I am not a feminist.
I do not really put myself into any category besides like the emo/goth? I guess…. But like I mean that has to do with my likes and dislikes and the appearance I choose to have because I feel it is me. Its what I like to look like and I feel weird when I’m not myself. Which lately I’ve been to tired or busy and just want to sleep instead of waking up and doing my makeup, and I did it today and I feel awesome because of that.
I do get treated differently sometimes because of my style BUT again I don’t let that be an excuse to not work for what I want. My style has been refused by many but also has gotten me noticed and my interest that are part of that style helped me get the job that made me realize and shape my current goals and future plans. (see first blog for more on that)
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I’ve been adding a bunch since my original note, I started typing out so this is going to take a bit of a jump here but this is how my brain works, and the two are linked in my mind. Just a topic that I need to get out in the world, and out of my brain from recent times or kinda past times as well.
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I DO NOT CHOOSE SIDES!!
In a similar example of fairness and equality in everything…..
Fights in friend groups I don’t do. I do not take sides, I do not choose, I stay with as many connections as I can and that upsets one person or another well then well that’s not being fair to me. (and I do experience this quite a bit, and should voice to the people who make me feel that way and remind them I am around to be a friend and listen but I do that to everyone I consider my friend. I do not base my opinions or choice in who to hang out with based on someone else’s dislike of them.
Someone said recently that I thought I was “higher” and “better” then them. That is not the case at all, not ever. Anyone who thinks that doesn’t know me at all. And the person who said this definitely should know me better then that. I know my life is better without certain people in it. With that said I do forgive and forget. (a lil background) Only 3 people my entire life I chose to cut out and have stayed out.... I don’t cut people out and don’t need to go into the details because I’m in a good, happy mood and just clearing my mind. Anyways…. One of these people I would gladly speak to again because they were just caught in the middle and stuck to a side that I cut out. The other two I truly know my life is just better without. That doesn’t mean they are bad people or bad friends but they weren’t good to me or for me. I now realize this about other people too who walked out of my life and cut me out and it hurt so much but now looking back they were so bad and unhealthy.
I can be civil to one of these people, we have mutual friends and I can be in the same room or event or whatever with them. Just as I don’t choose sides, I don’t expect others to choose mine. Also in this case there is really no sides, there was no argument, It was just a life chose that needed to be made to no longer spend time with this person. (and it really does hurt me that it wasn’t a right friendship, and also that everyone else makes it so awkward when we have been around the same place. I DO NOT HATE THIS PERSON, I DO NOT THINK I'M BETTER. I just know I’m better without and I’m sorry for that).
And it all feels childish that I am feeling this way at 28. A know I have matured so much over the years to have these opinions and views. Especially with being at peace with the people who broke be and chose to leave my life. I am better off now. And that doesn’t mean I wont be sad if someone cuts me out again, because I will 100% be broken hearted if someone chooses to not be in my life or I have to make that choice. I don’t even want to think about that.
I wanted to say that most of these thoughts are on my mind because this book is about kids in high school but this is just life and the experience I just talked bout happened only like a week ago…
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Anyways that’s all I got for now.... all started as a note on my phone about MOXIE. So that’s a lil bat rant for you.. nothing too serious but hey it feels good to get it out even if no one reads it.. there will be probably quite a few of these, and most likely will end up being video rants now that I’m getting back into sharing!
My favorite character is Seth because he is the voice of equality and keeps reminding “hey not all guys are like that, not all guys are the same” which is typically me saying that from both sides
…
I really don’t want to get into too much of my opinions on gender equality and just equality overall because I’m not looking to upset anyone or start a war online. Not that I’m scared to voice my opinion or have one just this is just not a time for that. And keep having this rant in my mind and have tweeted a bit but now I’m blogging, right?
…
I usually stay in my bubble… I feel what I feel, but have had a way stronger opinion on a lot of things the past month I would say. I never really felt that I needed to post about it or stand up for it just for the sake of it. Not that I dont. I voice my opinion when it’s needed and stand up for people when I can and when I feel its right. I actually step into a bunch of situations, and don’t need to give examples of them because this is not what this is about…
…
What started me being feisty I think was. When I went to a class a few weeks ago, the whole beginning was many of the women attending saying how they felt they are treated bad just because they are women; how that has put a hold or stop to their goals or feel like they cant ever achieve what they want in life because of that.
I KNOW and FEEL for the people who experience that BUT I can’t say that I have. I mean I suppose I have; now that I’m really thinking about it, of course I have we all have BUT I NEVER LET IT AFFECT ME. I may have in the past but not with the thought of I cant do this because I’m a girl/women so I can say I cant recall an instance when I let gender or any other classification keep me from being me and trying to do what I want. (and I haven’t made it yet for many reasons but I’m still working and this blog is part of that)
I think that is what frustrates me the most… I know not everyone thinks or feels how I do. Good god, do I know that because I feel so much.
I am so very EMO and that’s OKAY. That doesn’t just mean I’m sad which is a whole other rant for another day! (if anything I feel like I get judged on that more then anything to do with my body).
To use “I’m treated differently, so I can’t” as an excuse gets me fired up!
YOU CAN. You can do or be whatever you want. It’s not easy and as things may seem easy from your perspective of someone you don’t know how or what it took for them to get there either. Your judgment and being like well they are “male/female” whoever/whatever it is that you think is discriminating against you well that’s kind of what you’re doing in response?
…
(Again a lot of this has to do with the book MOXIE, that I’m currently reading)
I am NOT against feminism.
But I am not a feminist.
I do not really put myself into any category besides like the emo/goth? I guess…. But like I mean that has to do with my likes and dislikes and the appearance I choose to have because I feel it is me. Its what I like to look like and I feel weird when I’m not myself. Which lately I’ve been to tired or busy and just want to sleep instead of waking up and doing my makeup, and I did it today and I feel awesome because of that.
I do get treated differently sometimes because of my style BUT again I don’t let that be an excuse to not work for what I want. My style has been refused by many but also has gotten me noticed and my interest that are part of that style helped me get the job that made me realize and shape my current goals and future plans. (see first blog for more on that)
…
I’ve been adding a bunch since my original note, I started typing out so this is going to take a bit of a jump here but this is how my brain works, and the two are linked in my mind. Just a topic that I need to get out in the world, and out of my brain from recent times or kinda past times as well.
…
I DO NOT CHOOSE SIDES!!
In a similar example of fairness and equality in everything…..
Fights in friend groups I don’t do. I do not take sides, I do not choose, I stay with as many connections as I can and that upsets one person or another well then well that’s not being fair to me. (and I do experience this quite a bit, and should voice to the people who make me feel that way and remind them I am around to be a friend and listen but I do that to everyone I consider my friend. I do not base my opinions or choice in who to hang out with based on someone else’s dislike of them.
Someone said recently that I thought I was “higher” and “better” then them. That is not the case at all, not ever. Anyone who thinks that doesn’t know me at all. And the person who said this definitely should know me better then that. I know my life is better without certain people in it. With that said I do forgive and forget. (a lil background) Only 3 people my entire life I chose to cut out and have stayed out.... I don’t cut people out and don’t need to go into the details because I’m in a good, happy mood and just clearing my mind. Anyways…. One of these people I would gladly speak to again because they were just caught in the middle and stuck to a side that I cut out. The other two I truly know my life is just better without. That doesn’t mean they are bad people or bad friends but they weren’t good to me or for me. I now realize this about other people too who walked out of my life and cut me out and it hurt so much but now looking back they were so bad and unhealthy.
I can be civil to one of these people, we have mutual friends and I can be in the same room or event or whatever with them. Just as I don’t choose sides, I don’t expect others to choose mine. Also in this case there is really no sides, there was no argument, It was just a life chose that needed to be made to no longer spend time with this person. (and it really does hurt me that it wasn’t a right friendship, and also that everyone else makes it so awkward when we have been around the same place. I DO NOT HATE THIS PERSON, I DO NOT THINK I'M BETTER. I just know I’m better without and I’m sorry for that).
And it all feels childish that I am feeling this way at 28. A know I have matured so much over the years to have these opinions and views. Especially with being at peace with the people who broke be and chose to leave my life. I am better off now. And that doesn’t mean I wont be sad if someone cuts me out again, because I will 100% be broken hearted if someone chooses to not be in my life or I have to make that choice. I don’t even want to think about that.
I wanted to say that most of these thoughts are on my mind because this book is about kids in high school but this is just life and the experience I just talked bout happened only like a week ago…
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…
Anyways that’s all I got for now.... all started as a note on my phone about MOXIE. So that’s a lil bat rant for you.. nothing too serious but hey it feels good to get it out even if no one reads it.. there will be probably quite a few of these, and most likely will end up being video rants now that I’m getting back into sharing!